all doors lead to the truth

the emptiness-spaces-lines-gaps-awaiting anticipating
the scornful stains of my fine tipped pen
i hear her through the stream flowing-rushing-falling
from the back of my mind into my hand
that condenses black onto this paper as we collapse

It's dark
i trust in the sacred sounds
in my sacred silence between sleep and serenity
your faint fading falling almost forgotten voice
you ask of me once more to listen-so tell me-

"it wasn't right, it went all wrong,
i blamed you for everything, it wasn't your fault
I love you
I miss you"

you drowned me in guilt and shame
you cut off my wings and cursed my name
then you pulled that frail light of a halo down
around
my neck
you stared me in my dead light eyes
laid me down to eternal unrest
with your knife in my back-
you turned me over and fucked me
until i came inside you then you left me half dead
collapsed-erect-insane direlect
addicted to jaded affliction
your conceited perfektion

Goodbye don't write me anymore
just close the door
goodbye don't write me anymore-
just walk away-
close that fucking door