Zydrate Zoe's Blog (51)

right so my current situation sucks,i'm in a temporary place(a hotel) while looking foe a new flat cos the place i was living had black mould which is toxic!been here since monday and nothin too bad happened til last night...here it is:

the dude in the roo next to us is called adam,paul has spoken to him a few times and he seemed alright,yesterday adam's GF came to…

is it cool to write a zombie story with some sex in it or not?(obviously not with the zombies!lol) cos some might think it gross and not wanna read it...hmmm i wonder.

well the whole of england is on an unofficial bank holiday today so no post,i'm bored and i've spent most of last night sicking up everything that passed my lips,i'm still very ill.i am still in a foul mood cos of this uncle thing but hey i'm sure he'd be happy that i'm pretty much starving from the inside thanks to vomiting up,he'd be happy cos it'd make me lose weight against my will...

bella is curled up in my lap,bless her,she wants to sleep the day away

i dreamed…

well this coldy thingie is getting worse,i've been sicking up a whole lot(it sucks cos i love xmas food),coughing fits,my chest hurts and my head is pounding...according to a friend of mine its abug thats going around and will last a few days.got greceries coming from tesco today,glad that at least the supermarkets are open on bank holidays cos i'd be sooooo much worse without cold+flu meds.

so family-drama wise i found out why my mum isn't talking to my uncle,he's been…

well xmas is over, the day and the stress of it are done.i have a cold,like a real stinker of one but i'll be ok if i can keep warm and take meds.

none of my family is talking to my uncle,myself included.

bella made out like a bandit,present-wise...6 toys, 14 outfits worth of clothes,money,jewellery.

i got a good haul too...a chocolate fountain,jewellery,boxes of chocolates,make-up,money,books(including the zombie survival guide!thanks to my brother kevin!been readin it…

well its all worked out,dinner is very nearly cooked,i am in my flat,bella is happy,the car will be fixed within a week,got booze,got weed,spent time with mum and nan!

my brother got engaged to his lovely laura!

i'm tipsy,i'm happy and so i present to my WZ friends,7 of the twelve days of cryptmas:…

well the madness is going on,i'm currently in london,possibly for a few days with the family,my head is pounding and i'm in need of painkillers but i'm glad to see my mum and nan.bella loves nan,as i knew she would.got to sleep at about half 4am,was stoned outta my freakin head!!!!!!!!!(mum looked after bells last night) and now i'm ready to face the day...kinda!

got a surprise text from mum yesterday night saying "get ready we're coming for you" and so we did,bloody forgot…

well we all survived bella's first birthday more or less ok,she loved the pressies we got her,the cake turned out ok and i only had 2 minor meltdowns...all in all,not the worst day.

we had a little anything-but-tea party(we hate tea,paul is a coffee addict and i prefer alcohol or a nice milkshake) then watched shrek forever after and the sorcerors apprentice,bella loved it.she got sang to a lot and we had fun

the money i was due didnt come yesterday,its coming today so its not…

well after all the fuss and spending £200 sorting out the car now theres another fucking problem,the alternator is fucked and my daughters birthday is fucked.i feel like the worst mother in the world,cant stop cry and i wish someone would just fucking shoot me already cos at least then i wouldnt be there to fuck up the rest of bella's life.if i weren't such a fucking coward i'd slit my own wrists

hi all,car is finally sorted and so we're off to see mum and nan 2morrow,bella and mums cake is currently baking(i can smell the delicious cakey smell already,its making me salivate!)and the xmas food shopping is here(seriously,turducken and ham,goose fat roast potatoes,wild herb and shallot stuffing,cranberry sauce,brussell sprouts,mushrooms and gravy)

watching the simpsons with bella and wondering what frosting to do for the cake,still got cupcakes to do but its all…

so still havent seen nan,my bloody dumbass car decided to be evil and so no travel til tuesday(thats right,mum and bells birthday *pulls out my hair*)

bella has be taking her clothes off like a lil monkey,might have to put her hands in mittens!she got a pressie from her aunty kaye and its a fucking singing bear,cute at first but after half an hour of alfie singing i wanna shove my own toes in my ears!!!!!!!!!!!!!(which by the way i can, i'm hypermobile/double jointed)

finally…

well nan is in the country,my uncle is taking forever to get to my mum's(seriously its over an hour thus-far for a 20 minute journey),mum keeps calling my uncle a dickhead and she's stressing about her mum being around.i THANKFULLY am 70 miles south of the family mayhem but i'm getting a play-by-play from mum via text.i feel like one of the undead,didnt get to bed til half past fucking five this morning because my sweet darling daughter didnt wanna sleep.now i've woken up coughing my guts up…

ok so last night i was in the middle of a cooking frenzy and then my knee decided to dislocoate itself,i was howling i pain!

it still hurts but i relocated it(which hurts like buggery to do,not recommended) and then all of a sudden my adrenaline levels zero'd out and i started shivering and passed out...oh what a fun evening i had!

so i'm working on 12 zombie days of xmas,pauls helpin me.i'm kinda half stuck in bed til my leg feels a bit better but i'm gonna push myself and…

here's a link for "re-born dolls" realistic dolls,like scary realistic

http://www.artfulbabies.co.uk/adopted.html

ok so i found this today and i'm rather speechless.

now having lost twins(twin to twin transfusion syndrome followed by premature labour,

and stillbirth,i dont dwell on it if i can help it) i understand the need to have an outlet for grief or pain or maternal instinct but this is…

yeah ok random but true,there are some random-assed genetic experiments going on here in the uk and around the world,including breeding piggies to be more docile by changing up some of their DNA with human genes,this in turn fucks with their systems,makes them ill and causes zombie traits in the little porkers...these little piggies(and here's the kicker) are being bred to be eaten,so what happens if zombipigitus becomes communicable due to their small percentage of human genes?we get…

sometimes i feel like from me.like i'm slipping off the edge of my sanity,like my life is trickling away...in september someone i thought of as a sister died,she way my age and we were as close as twins most of our lives.asha commited suicide,she hung herself.i miss her so much,i remember when we used to sit in my room at my mums and talk for hours,i remember getting the text from my mum telling me she topped herself and feeling the biggest shiver like all the heat from the early autumn day…

hi all my WZers,miss me? so sorry i've been gone,had a massively bad week(not feeling well+xmas=zoe vomiting and stressing out,so not a good look!)

linkin park concert was on mtv last night,bella actually clapped her hands and sang along,its soooooooo cute!

my nan is gonna be here next week,so exited n stressed and loadsa other stuff

got REC and quarantine to watch for compare n contrast purposes...

bella has turned nocturnal,i havent gotten to sleep…

having a shit day today,not feeling great,i'm not pregnant,paul's in a shit mood so he's snapping really easily and bella is being really horrid to me right now.

-sigh-

what else can i say,i'm feeling pretty damn pissed off,think i might smoke some herb and just go to sleep,hopefully 2morrow will bring something better cos i really cant fucking deal right now and these stomach cramps are drivin me insane.night all my WZ'ers!

zoe

hey everyone,soz to have been away but between the snow and being exhausted i havent been online much.been up since 6am vomiting and generally feeling rough,i'm still stressin bout xmas,getting the car back on the road and other stuff,theres been no fucking post,the lazy fucker postal workers and the roads being closed sucks!!!!!!!!

bella is cute as ever,latest little phrase of hers is "bang bang!" she's hibernating alot and snuggling me n paul lots.

think i have a sore throat…